https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qwSjcPU-paU
shreyashree is asking what does the
awareness practice mean at the level of
we seekers when the awareness is by
grace does this mean evolution of our
minds on purification
it simply means
that you are trying to use your
knowledge in your daily life and you are
waiting for that moment when there is
awareness when there is awareness you
hold on to the awareness that is all
the more you do it
the more it will be turned on because
now there is a
an importance is felt of this activity
of awareness
somehow it is perceived as more
important because you are paying
attention to what is happening and the
more you do it
the more you attend to it the more you
like it the more there will be this is
the whole practice
whenever i say try to be aware that
simply means that whenever there is
awareness you must allow it fully and
completely and there will be effects of
it which we keep mentioning in many
satsangs many videos
many
times we have
discussed the effects of awareness
there are some benefits and there are
some drawbacks from the point of view of
the ego you will first you'll find that
the ego has diminished it almost feels
like it is not there but nothing to
worry it will come back as soon as it is
needed the awareness will be gone the
person will be back in total and
awareness and nothing will be known at
the time the knowledge will be in the
background
but then it comes back again oh i was
not aware this is the first thought when
this first thought is there it means
that awareness is already there
otherwise there was no possibility of
detecting that i was not aware
unawareness means this thing cannot be
said that there is no awareness
complete darkness so as soon as you get
this thought i was not aware or you you
may get this thought that now i am aware
hold on to this state of awareness pay
attention to it see how it feels
is there any change in your behavior
speech and thought awareness is simply
knowledge that i am the experiencer do
you find it confusing or do you find it
unpleasant that i am the experiencer do
you find certain kind of bliss in it and
do you see the world as real serious job
to be done at any cost or will the world
become like a dream when awareness is on
when nothing matters just like in the
dream
you should note these things
so at the level of seekers this is all
you need to do now there can be initial
questions like when will i do my other
work or how to bring it when i want it
so probably everybody knows the answers
to these things everybody knows the
answers to these questions childish
questions
after the knowledge the seeker must
surrender to the knowledge there is
nothing more to do you see non-doing
then yes
it is surely by grace because there is
no doer really the practice is
not being done by the practitioner this
you will know only when you are in
awareness
like your heart is beating nobody is
doing it there is no beater of the
beating your lungs are breathing nobody
is doing it your eyes are seeing but
nobody is making it see and your ears
are listening and nobody does it so very
easy nobody brings the awareness there
is nobody
it's all grace the grace will happen to
those who are ready who are ready then
those who have understood
they are ready they don't even need to
do any kind of effort it is always there
or it is there whenever it is needed see
some people have this misconception that
it must be present all the time you will
not even notice if it is present all the
time there is no way to notice it like a
background noise is present all the time
if you don't notice it then
then some people think that i should be
alert all the time 24 by seven and they
say when will i sleep when will i work
when will i eat who will take care of my
family if i'm alertness is not awareness
alertness is
emergency situation that's all it should
not happen 24 7 otherwise the health
will be affected
alertness there is some danger or
something important is happening
and awareness means simply knowing
simply being in knowledge is awareness
so why do people have these questions
first they do not think and do not sit
and think oh i am in the step number
four let me do it okay okay he said
awareness i will not check the video
i'll not even
listen to the definition of awareness
and i all i do is i sit with eyes closed
whole day this is the condition of even
the very very intelligent seekers
no you need to understand your practice
before you even do it if you don't
understand you should ask so awareness
will become a like constant background
which is unnoticeable and you won't
notice it but others are going to notice
it they will say why are you so silent
they don't know the word peace an
ordinary person does not understand the
word peace they will say why are you
silent why are you depressed that's all
they understand
you don't even feel a need to smile
because smile is also violence not
silence
you smile inside that's all you can do
you won't notice it other other people
will notice your behavior is very
different now you're not arguing you're
not shouting you are not crying you're
not even laughing too much and you don't
do any of the stupid things that
everybody else is doing
there will be more changes
but remember we are not after the
awareness for the changes that is not
our goal to bring in the change
if you are you don't need any change in
you
in the mind then there is no need of
changing anything it is perfect as it is
you are unique just like everybody else
don't think that i am i need to be aware
just to bring in the changes that will
be therapy that's not awareness practice
some kind of medicine
you are aware because you see this is
the path of knowledge that is the only
practice here you want to progress
spiritually isn't it you don't want to
change the behavior you don't want to
change the body all these are side
effects as i have already said in the
video
still people try to bring in the
awareness even after listening to the
video
even after saying that these are side
effects don't try to bring them it's not
possible be in knowledge that is
possible
but the ego is very strong knowledge is
not really accepted
and the thought will be like this
well i mean awareness now five minutes
have passed nothing has happened
i have this thing to do i have that
thing to do i have this problem that
problem my time is getting wasted here
and this is the ego your good friend so
there is no awareness really there are
only thoughts when there is awareness
there can be thoughts they are like
smoke disappear completely they are not
solid they do not hit you like a stone
and they do not make you work no action
is possible here
there is control
control is the keyword that is the
goal of the awareness practice to have
full control over all the activities
but that control cannot come if you try
to control it will never happen that
will be kind of some some kind of
suppression or that will be some kind of
rejection it is not your control
control is when everything is happening
the dance of activities is happening in
you and you are watching it's not
stopping actually it is watching
the stopping may happen may not happen
depending on how important that activity
is so there can be side effects like
evolution or purification but we don't
do it it's not possible to do it it is
possible to let it happen by by becoming
a bystander of it
you stand by watch watch the evolution
happen watch the purification happen if
you do it something is wrong isn't it
so hopefully that answers the question
there was a long discussion in one of
the satsang in english and there is a
very good video by ashwin in hindi if
anybody is interested in knowing more
about awareness and usually i don't say
it but it is optional the awareness
practice is optional in the pure path of
knowledge there is no practice nothing
is prescribed the seed is there and the
seed will tell you when to practice
which means it will happen automatically
like it is very funny in the kundalini
tradition people say that i am doing
kundalini practice the truth is the
kundalini is making them practice
something this is the truth i think it
is true for all the practices
in the world the kundalini comes
whenever it wants she wants
the kundalini does whatever she wants
the practitioner cannot do anything
unfortunately it is never told to them
that you are not present actually you
are not there the only thing there is is
this power kundalini we also call it
baby
many times we call it that is all there
is she is now
somewhat activated or agitated by your
guru now there is nobody to stop it
there will be thoughts like i want to
stop this this is not usual it's not
natural see these thoughts are unnatural
you are never told that this cannot be
stopped you were never told that it will
happen as and when it wants to happen
then there will be thought no no it is
my life i i'll control when the
kundalini comes and when it goes i'll
control how much i wall when i die and
so on you see there is nothing like this
the only way in the kundalini tradition
is to surrender that is what this ego
can do it cannot do anything
and i am saying is exactly the same in
the path of knowledge exactly simply
because we call it by some other name
it's not the truth is not going to
change this ego can only surrender and
this top down process starts in the
seeker body mind in the kundalini
tradition it is bottom-up i think this
is also discussed somewhere because it
is bottom-up because you're familiar
with the bottom layers only you think it
is going out of control this is for
kundalini people since path of knowledge
is top down you think i am in control
both our problem isn't
there is control there is no controller
the kundalini seems to be out of control
because this is never told to them there
is no controller that which is is
already in control it was there before
your activation it is there
it is in control after your activation
nothing has changed actually except your
surprise this
non-acceptance lack of surrender causes
suffering in the kundalini tradition
otherwise there is no real suffering
you can say guru can tell all these
things no nobody is there no doer is
there surrender surrender
and i'll tell you the truth the guru
keeps saying it every day people don't
listen then what happens is the ego is
crushed by force of devi that is what
happens
then that person is sent to mental
hospital lots of cases i've seen lots or
in india you see they're sent to some
tantric baba because there is some evil
spirit in that body so
it was a valid path now i don't think it
is so
effective nowadays
nothing can be done actually even the
guru will not do anything the guru gives
you some kind of placebo words i'm doing
it yes yes you will become good you will
become fine
you will be cured of kundalini this is
i've heard this thing you know who can
cure the kundalini give me his name
nobody same way
when you do the awareness practice
there's nobody to bring the awareness
there's no controller of anything and
nobody can stop it also one way street
so i also give you passive words many
people must have experienced this thing
what do i say you are doing great
i am happy that you are progressing but
neither that person is doing anything
nor i am doing anything then the right
long one page experience i had i said
very good experience now continue
continuing the practice meaningless
isn't it
the key is surrender the only way to get
rid of it is to not go to a guru first
in the first place don't don't take any
spiritual paths by any i mean any other
because all the paths will do the same
thing there is only one layered
structure and it operates in exactly one
way so that is the only solution
but deep is asking i mean commenting
many seekers even require preparation to
understand path of knowledge it is our
job to prepare them yes you are in the
knowledge destination now so
it is the job of the teacher to prepare
them and those who are totally hopeless
this is the duty of the teacher to send
them to some other path not prepare them
only those with possibilities some
little bit should be tried you see
although we cannot do much
but he was saying i do all parts for
potential and sincere seekers only the
only preparation they require is you
know to leave whatever they are doing
and get on the path of knowledge
and those who understand the importance
of it they are prepared to change
others they will continue others will
continue on their old pattern
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