Tarun Pradhaan : The Illusion of Will

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welcome to transmissions in the last episode we saw that there is

no individual if there is no individual

all the actions that are being done by the individuals are being done by nobody

this is very difficult to understand at first because we are so habitual of assigning

the actions that are being produced

by this body-mind mechanism to myself or to

the individual that we do not even pause and think what actions are happening who is doing

them what is the cause that is responsible

for that action for that effect in this delusion of the individual we

are so busy acting that we do not even reflect on what actions that happened

there is another delusion that is far more deeper and complicated than the

illusion of individual is that the individual is doing

everything according to his or her own will let us find out how the actions are

happening and who is doing them what is the meaning of willing

or intending or desiring

all the actions they happen through the body but they start in the mind

the actions have a seed in the mind that see it can be called as an intention

the intention is an impulse that decision a desire which gets translated into

actions of the motor systems in the body while the medium of the

nervous system this much is already known to everyone i think the body is capable of producing

only one action and that is contraction of the muscles

when we walk or when we work with hands or even when we speak

nothing else is happening except contraction and relaxation of muscles and that is

happening in response to the signals that are being sent by the nervous system the body

acts in a predefined way as it is recorded in the memory

if you need to perform a new action you need to learn it first you need to

memorize that action first otherwise the body is incapable of doing it it can

be speech it can be other acts such as writing

or dancing or even walking the actions of the body they come from

the memory that is very very obvious but

the memory is being governed by other memories the

action of the body is initiated by other processes in the mind

that also are a memory there are memories in the

different layers of the mind and there is a process in the mind that scans through the memories

just like there needs to be an experience recorded in the memory in order for the body to perform an

action there needs to be an experience that tells the mind

what action to do there are millions and millions of various events and experiences that are

impinging on our minds that are getting recorded in this memory

and there is a process in the mind that scans through these memories and produces an impulse the impulses

can come from the internal memory where the experiences are being stored

or it can be triggered from external situations or sometimes

situations within the body so we can identify three kinds of

triggers for action the first is very very obvious if something changes in the

physical world for example you are walking on a path and suddenly a

wild animal appears now that is perceived and the internal

program in your mind initiates an action that the action can be

self-defense running or killing or anything if you are walking and the rain starts

falling the mind initiates an action to protect the body

if you meet an old friend the mind brings up a good memory and your body reacts in that

joyous manner it is all a pre-learning that is being executed when the

situations change around the body the second trigger is

the body itself when you feel hunger your body rushes to

the kitchen to find some food when you feel pain the body wants to

relax the body wants to sit down or lie down if it's not well the third trigger is

within the mind itself there are many kinds of mental rigors

such such as the triggers coming from the lower layers of the mind whenever you recall a bad incident

that happened recently an action is triggered that action can be thought that action

can be speech or even the body starts moving to

realize that action the thought appears in your mind of you being insulted by

somebody now all kinds of negative thoughts of anger and hate they arrive in your mind and

they push the body the push even the speech to happen you either start talking in anger

you may want to write an email hate mail to that person

that is another action that can be triggered by the lower layer of the mind or you

may just take your gun and go and hunt for that person who insulted you last week

similarly a thought of your loved one appears in your mind and you decide to call that

person that is an action it is also happening impulsively

it can be something good it can be something bad and there can be thoughts that come from

the intellectual layers of the mind for example you remember something to

buy and then you rush towards the shop to buy it are you bored and you want some

entertainment and you turn on the tv or you open a book and start reading

these are intellectual impulses and they translate into actions there

can be many in between layers in the mind which produce those impulses and we can say that

we can roughly say that there is a process in the mind that is scanning the memories

and brings up impulses in the mind that push the body into action

the thinking is also an action even though it is not a movement of

muscles in the body it is a movement of thought it is a movement of the mind itself it

is a non-physical action it does not appear in the world the body is the one the body is the

instrument through which these non-physical impulses are converted into physical actions through

the nervous system and the muscular system the skeleton and muscles in the body

this process is some sometimes called default mode

or the default network in the brain it is doing nothing it is

simply scanning the mind for any unfulfilled

actions any unresolved issue any memories that needs to be converted

into actions and it brings them up again and again and again it is a process remember it is a loop it

goes on and on and on in our waking time

there are processes which you are already familiar with that bring the body into actions of one

kind or the other kind for example breathing it is going on in the loop the heart

beating the digestion excretion and sleep waking these cycles are

going on in the body there are other cycles in different layers of the mind

the egoic cycles whenever it encounters a memory that is

a survival issue it quickly very impulsively pushes the body into action there are

higher layers of the mind where this process is also going on and they push the organism this

whole mind body into one or other kind of action [Music]

if there is no corresponding experience this process the scanning process

cannot produce an impulse cannot produce a desire cannot produce an intention

which is also known as will in commonly used language

this will or this intention is a small action in the mind the mind sometimes rehearses the action

also which is also called planning when we are hungry

and we are doing something the hunger signal reaches the mind and the

impulsive process there the process of intention produces a small action in the mind

which is a rehearsal of going to the kitchen and eating something this appears as thought sometimes the

thought appears as internal monologue also which is like thinking i better go to

the kitchen and eat something i'm very hungry it finally becomes action of the mouth

of your feet hands and so on and the ball takes over choose the food

digest it and so on if there is no experience there is no action

there is no intention there is no rehearsal of the action there are no thoughts

about it for example if you have never seen a particular kind of car

the intention of buying that car will never arrive in your mind it's not possible

it is not possible to will something which is not in your experience

it will there will be various thoughts of buying other cars which

you have seen but not the one which you have never seen

till you go to the showroom and see the car for yourself then this experience arrives in the

memory and that process of intention creation

gives you an option to choose but we can say that the choice is the essence of

the willing not the memory well the choice is also not there if

there is no experience of that thing if nobody insults you you do not have

any choice to go and fight with that person it has to be in the memory it has to be

recorded in the memory first and then the processes take over and they produce the intentions and wills

and you can find choices there you can say that i am free to choose

even if there are limited experiences limited memories limited impressions of these experiences

i am free to choose one action out of many now this is very funny because we have

seen that there is no i am there is no individual there which does anything the mind does the

choosing also and it does it depending on its likes and dislikes

we all know this that we pick the things that we like

instead of things that we dislike if you like a specific color we choose that if you like a specific shape or

we choose that if you like a specific kind of food we choose that even the words that we are going to

speak are being chosen because they are in the memory

and there is a bias towards choosing a specific kind of word

sometimes this process becomes very very involved like we sometimes choose something which

is not our choice and there is usually another program there which is

forcing us to do that for example we are sitting in the classroom and we do not

want to listen to the lecture of the teacher and we want to look at something else

but the teacher when when the teacher notices you there is a

process in the mind that starts which is of fear or of embarrassment or something like that

which forces this mind to attend to the lecture instead of

doing something else and we say that i had the choice

to choose something else but something forced me to choose another action which i

did not will but the reality is that this willing also

happened and it happened through the same mind under the influence of

another process instead of the default process of choosing that which we like most

the actual event the the command of the teacher biased our choices the bias

can also come from within our body for example we want to sit and watch a

movie but the body says go to toilet first and we say i am not free to choose this

action of watching the movie because there is another choice which is forcing

me to leave the room go to bathroom we say i was not free

but this choice was made in a similar way in the process that

made the choice of watching the movie is exactly the same as the process which made the choice to go to bathroom

this whole process appears as a process of decision making in the mind

it is mostly impulsive it does not involve involve a lot of lot of thought but sometimes this process of decision

making choosing can be rather complicated for example you want to buy a house

now you think about it for many many weeks you arrange the money you go to the lawyer you find out

whether property is good whether it will give us returns or not

and then you proceed with the action you do not do it impulsively

and the process of decision making is very involved it involves something which called

rational and logical thinking it is not emotional or

impulsive it's not based on feelings or external situations

and this gives us a very elaborate decision making process and very

convincing illusion of free will that i chose this kind of action because i went

through the decision making process and this is where ordinary people even the

educated people fail to see that it is all being done in the mind

and being acted through the body there is no me here the thoughts appear the biases are

calculated and the decision happens it is likes and dislikes only but in a very

refined form let us say news appears in the newspaper that the property prices are going high

and there your willing is biased by this external event the new

experience and then there is another decision that happens probably i'll wait

for the prices to go down and you can say i was not free to choose

buying of my house but this decision happened as freely as

the one that happened before or that would happen without this news

of property prices going up it is the bias the bias comes from

external events or it can come from the internal events which we call as

likes and dislikes what are likes and dislikes they are pre-programmed choices they are the preferences that

form throughout our childhood or throughout our life also for example

you do not like dogs probably because there was a fearful reaction from you there was some

traumatic incident regarding the dogs in your childhood for example you do not like the color

red probably because there was toy in your childhood which was red in color

and it caused some kind of pain or cause some kind of fear in your mind because

of any reason now the dislike is impressed on your mind let's say you dislike

eating meat probably it is because you went to the butcher shop you saw that a very cute and pretty

animal is killed and torn into pieces and that produces reluctance in your

mind that produces a bias a disgust dislike for that kind of food likes and dislikes

also are pre-programmed they are past experiences impressed on

our memory nothing else and the whole process of choosing happens through a series of biases

it is not impossible to see all of them but some of them are so tiny so minute

that it becomes difficult to perceive them and that is where the illusion of free

will is strongest for example i give you two objects and i

ask you to choose one which are not particularly

good or bad for you not particularly lovely or disgusting for you you're not

totally repulsed or attracted to them they are something neutral for example the shape

of a circle or shape of a triangle a very interesting experiment the biases

are still there in your mind but they become imperceptible we can say that almost random processes

happen in the mind because the mind has no obvious biases it is not a survival issue

there is no particular like or dislike even the colors are same and then it becomes almost a random

process but it is still coming from the mind the choice happens first the decision

happens first and then it enters into and then it takes the form of will or intention

the small action happens in the mind and then it is amplified by the nervous

system into the grass action and you pick a

shape you do not know why you choose it but you want to call it as my choice

that is something funny because people will say that look this experiment demonstrates the free will

but they are unable to tell why they chose something over the other and if they can tell oh i

like circles because they are beautiful than the triangles

and that means that action was not free that will was not free it was biased by

the preference for shape of circle

so when we choose with free will we are not really knowing why we choose

it when we choose in a biased way we know why we chose it but then it is not free

perhaps you are never seen this happening perhaps you are busy choosing with your

free will and acting without paying attention to what is going on it is not impossible to see all these

processes in the mind you need to be very very alert you need to pay attention

what is what is happening in the mind and you need to be aware if you do not have any awareness of the

processes in the mind the thinking process the biases the

the choosing process your past experiences of your likes and dislikes your

preferences then you are going to call it my will and then you will do it once it

is done as and take and taken as my action then you will defend it i am right

because i did it this is usually the logic of the people

or sometimes they will realize oh i did something very good or i made a mistake

so anyhow the action is done first and the responsibility or

the ownership is taken later whether it is a mistake it is a good action it is a bad action it is

unintentional action anything we take the responsibility

even the actions of the body such as burping sneezing coughing we do it first

and then we say i sneezed and then you say i'm sorry because it's all conditioning

is all automated the ownership is taken later the responsibility is taken later we are

not aware of this process which takes the responsibility it is another process in the mind which

says the individual or i has done that process because it is seen

as coming through this body sometimes we own the thoughts also

we say that oh i thought this i felt this i want this

the want happens first and the thought of it is it is being done by me comes later

the desire happens first and then the ownership of the desire arrives there are some

people who are slightly more awake and they will say the thought occurred to me

but there is still me here they know that the thought occurred but they also know that then i proceeded

to act on it or then i proceeded to think about it more

those who are even more aware they can see this reign of thoughts that is happening in

the mind this storm of desires

and intentions and choices is going on in the mind non-stop

they are aware of that and some of those choices they necessarily turn into actions

because usually there is no control the less aware you are of the processes

in the mind and the body the less control there is

look at the child there is absolutely no control over whatever the body and minds are

doing as we grow up we develop another process in the mind

which intervenes in the actions i am going to call it the

process of intervention or discrimination

it is also called the vivek this process develops as the intelligence develops

as more experiences happen and the this very infantile process

starts happening on its own the organism or the child sees that sometimes i can let the thought

sit there before acting the thought just sits there produces

more thoughts and as soon as the impulse becomes strong enough the action happens

sometimes the intelligence is mature enough and brings in other memories

fetches other options and thinks about which which action is best for me in the

long term although it is still a desire fulfilling

action it is still an action that is going to result into another action

grass action from the body but there is a delay there is an intention there

which chooses an action with some delay anyhow this

this process of decision making is going to happen even not acting becomes

an action greater intelligence means that this discrimination

is also very well developed there is a process that has taken over

the impulsive processes this is also called maturing of the individual a mature mind

does it that does not totally destroy the illusion of

willing we know that there is a will with the discriminating process can see it now and

then the owner of the process is well i wanted something but i decided not to

do it this is the discrimination in action

or i wanted to do something but i decided to do something else which was

which i thought was better action in my view and that is again the process of discrimination in

action but it is exactly happening just like the impulsive processes only that there is

slight delay involved and there is an intellect involved the impulse now must go through the

screening mechanism in the intellect before it is converted into action but

the individual is going to say the person is going to say oh it was my decision

my will i took the action because of my will i discriminated i discriminated

because i wanted to which is a double illusion as you can

see the decisions happen even very very complex decisions they go through the

same discriminating machinery and the ownership is taken later on

the decision making can be very elaborate but it can be seen that it simply happens under the influence of

biases which means the impressions that are already stored

in the memory the intellect has simply delayed the process considered a few more options that are

already in the memory and then it spits out an action which the

body mind owns in form of thought that i am going to do this action now i am

doing it after thinking it is my will that i will do this action

so it does not matter how long the process is or how complicated the processes are whether it is knee-jerk reaction that's

rightly called because just control system in action or whether it is impulsive egoic action

which is mostly related to survival and egoic

reasons and are the intellectual actions the actions that

we think are rational and logical they are all products of the mind

products of the memory and its processes

whatever you call is willing is automated nobody is there to will you can see it

when you come across more aware people more educated

probably more intelligent people just like artists when you ask a painter why did you

decide to put a yellow color there instead of red or why did you paint this thing in this particular way

and the painter usually has no answer he says there is something which drives

my hand which picks my brush the painting happens i am not painting it i do not will

if i will something if i desire something then i produce a mechanical piece of

art which is disgusting which is ugly it is a

repetition of what i already know if i draw a face in a particular way i am going to always draw it in that way

because the mind has been trained now to draw it in that way but when i when i

don't let these picking and choosing to happen the creativity appears sometimes the

stroke goes in a different direction than you intended and it is more beautiful it is new

creation and we say that we cannot create using

our will the creation happens although later on the artist is going to say

the ego comes up you see the individual creation process

comes out and takes the ownership of the creation also

usually it is just a free flowing of impressions from the memory into the

piece of art for example a sculptor is sculpting in the clay and has no particular intention of

building a particular kind of face or head there simply

obeys whatever is coming from the deep memories whatever

the mind thinks is beautiful is being sent out through his nervous system and hands into the clay and the clay

takes form and the sub and surprising thing is that the artist is not thinking when he is

creating when the artwork is finished the artist is himself as surprised

and is mesmerized by what was created as other people who are looking onlookers

a spiritual seeker or meditator or a yogi goes 100 steps

above the artist he can see each and every process in his mind even the ones that are that

have low amplitude like they are below the threshold of your internal senses they also become obvious because of this

habit of paying attention because of this practice of being aware of the mental processes

now each and every process in the mind all the activity of the mind is in clear picture and you can guess

now that is going to sharpen the instrument of discrimination in that person now the tiniest impulse

does not go out into the environment without being screened it is like the

watchman who is very honest who who knows his duty and he is

doing it honestly without stopping without sleeping

anything that comes up in the mind that is being generated by these

action triggering mechanisms in the mind the default network they must pass through this awareness

this gate of awareness they are checked for what consequences

they can produce and only that which is most necessary

is allowed through this gate of discrimination nothing else goes through all other

desires and bills and free choices they are stopped

you can see now that such a person who has this this discrimination and awareness

experiences more freedom than a person where this intellect is not working

where the discrimination is not present the person who is impulsive almost like an animal or like a child or

like a robot obeying the commands

from the body obeying the commands from the mind this not only refines our actions this gives us extra

control over our actions we know what consequences the actions or the impulses

are going to produce and we have a new choice there which is

very very important choice it is a very valuable choice probably it is the most

important choice that you have that is to not to act

to not to act when an impulse or a intention arises in your mind you know now

that it is not my choice it is not my desire it is not my will it is it has simply

appeared in the space of mind now i am not obliged

to carry it out to convert it into an action

at least i have another choice to sit down and think first what should i do what will be the

consequence this is enabled only by awareness awareness of what is going on in the

mind if you do not have this awareness the action will find its way out in the

environment and the consequences will find their way from the environment

into your mind this is a cyclic process we are trapped in the cycle

the cycle of actions and consequences the law of karma we are trapped in this

law because the discrimination is not functioning because many individuals they do not have

the choice to not to act or to delay the action or to find a better action or to engage

their rational and logical abilities first before acting out

you saw somebody smoking cigarette and you thought how cool it is or somebody brainwashed you that it is

cool this is the mark of the man to smoke and when the intellect is inactive

or in more common language when the person is stupid simply repeats

that action copies that behavior and it becomes ingrained

which is a very good word it becomes an impression permanent impression in the mind the

pleasure and pain centers they become involved which means likes and dislikes you are pushed into

that action it is like a whiplash of that of that past memory

which makes you do that action and if the consequences are bad which will be the case when you act

impulsively then who suffers nobody

this body in this mind there is no individual to suffer just like we saw in the

episode on the illusion of suffering i never suffer there is no i there is only an

experiencer who is experiencing this drama of choosing

discarding acting not acting and all that when this experience is

present you will find that no actions happen the mind continues its activities but it

is like clouds coming in the sky and then dissipating

it is like the clear sky always where the clouds come and go

it is a very beautiful state to be in and that is why we call it bliss

[Music] the meditative state where we are

simply observing the things that are going on in the mind and in the body and the environment

is blissful it's called anand and it is not wrong to say that

the bliss is my nature because the activity of the mind is not present here or even if it is present

it is seen as not me it is its ownership is not taken

it is very very blissful it is very very freeing because for the first time in your life

you have this option to not act probably if you want to call it will or free will

this is the most free thing that you can do all of your actions are bound by your

experiences that are impressed on your memory and bound by all these processes biases which are other experiences other

programs going on in your memory there is no freedom there

even if you call it my free will is not free it is willing itself it is free to do

whatever it wants to do it does not take your permission there is no you to permit

this discrimination can be developed to such an extent that it stops all

actions and that is the ultimate freedom that includes the actions to take birth

in this world that includes the actions to free the mind

completely from the impulsive

events which we call as my desires

this is liberation from birth and that's the karmic liberation the liberation from the cycles of birds

and that's liberation from the sansar it is the mukti it is the moksha it is the nirvana

now some people will say now with this kind of not acting where there is nothing happening what

will i do there is that is the mind asking it which is so habitual of doing things

which is so habitual of owning the desires and actions because it sees an emptiness there

no action nothing happening no activities not even birth no question of bodies or

the person or the individual or the mind and that it does not like the mind does

not like absence it wants something it wants some action which must be your own experience

and nothing to worry nothing to worry at all because this cannot be stopped the activity of the mind cannot be

stopped you will say no no but you just said that you will not be born it is impossible

the birds happen but now the mind is not associated with those birds it is

another level of existence about which i am not going to say a lot today

there will be long long discussions about these things the causal body and its liberation and all those topics in our coming

episodes in more videos future videos i've planned a long series of videos

on the very very complicated matters and things that are not in your experience right now so

don't worry don't worry what this higher state of existence is

but in this state as you can guess actions happen without ownership even the births happen

even the individuals are born even they do all kinds of actions but

at that level nothing is owned the ownership happens only at the level of the individual

the illusory individual just like the illusion of individual the ownership is also illusion

the actions are also illusory nothing is really happening here but that is discussion for another time

now what are the implications of there being no doer and there being no free will

you can see you can see there is doing yes actions are happening there is willing yes sometimes it is

random building but it is not freedom the only freedom is non-action even

not acting is some kind of conditioning it is higher conditioning and the slowly the mind settles into

this conditioning and then it looks like freedom actually there is no freedom

in anything it is all actions

consequences experiences memory actions consequences and this

cycle also called the karmic cycle continues as long as there is the substance of the

mind as long as there is this energy of the mind which likes to act

it is futile to stop it cannot be stopped it is

the experiencer itself that likes this kind of play cannot be stopped by this individual who

thinks i can stop things because i have this new power to stop

some of my actions [Music] it is another bias that's all it is even

the greatest yogi has biased his mind to perform nothing it is

it is an illusion that is bigger than the illusion of acting or actor

so anyhow the first implication is that you are freed from your own actions

now you need not take responsibilities of your past whatever you did in past was not your

doing it was just your karmic structure or the impressions or the sense scars in the

mind or the memory memory is very simple word but it's a big thing you see

the actions are happening it is it is simply impulses coming from the memory and they appear in the body and

environment which are again mind if you recall our discussion on the

topic of illusion of the world these objects that you see around just mind created

so mind is like sending out these waves of impulses and they

go to these other structures in the mind that we are reflected from it which we

call as consequences and they make new impressions on the memory as soon as there are new

impressions well they also produce waves which we call intentions or will

and they then produce consequences they travel again into the other structures of the mind

they get reflected consequences new impressions so it is a cyclic thing it is not being

done by me i am only a silent observer of what is going on you cannot observe these things right

now because you are not aware you never spent time to pay attention to

what is going on you're too busy acting and taking responsibility of your actions

too busy reacting too busy desiring and willing freely it is a grand delusion

your life is a lie it is not your life it is just happening your real life is

observation your real life is consciousness of these things

that is the only thing that is alive the mind the body the environment other people objects

they do not do anything they are just waves in the ocean of the universal mind

which you are observing you are associating with one or two particular waves that is

random there is no reason for that you can disassociate disidentify right

now and become free this opportunity of liberation is right here

right now there are other implications like if i'm not the doer then should i stop

doing everything like stop eating stop breathing stop speaking

and leave my job leave my family well that is not non-action that is stupidity the

non-action happens on the background of actions

you are not the doer that means you cannot even do this not doing do not try to do the not doing the

non-doing is already here recognize it it will appear as an awareness of what

is being done the discrimination network in your mind will kick in it will stop all that is unnecessary

that is all is possible it is stupid to think that i can change

a few things the mind changes itself the eye does not do anything it simply takes a

responsibility of it oh i changed it finally i stopped smoking

no it is not finally i learnt a new language no it is not you

just more impressions just more learning that's all

so there is no need to stop anything let there be awareness and the mind will do the rest there is

no you to do anything you are only a silent witness the witness does not do anything simply

witnesses it is very very pure and innocent does not even own anything it's like space

okay everything is allowed if it goes okay it's fine also if it changes that's also fine for the

witness no problem at all the mind has problems mindless biases and all it wants to

improve its actions so go ahead and do that

you're not free to stop it once this idea of improving myself gets hold in the mind

it will happen it will end up improving this body and mind it dies anyway so but the experience is

pleasant and at least it won't produce suffering

that's why the great masters have said you know don't do anything just improve yourself and then get rid of suffering

that's all that's all you need to worry about you're already liberated you see

the witness is already liberated it is not bound by biases choices likes dislikes it does not even

discriminate discrimination is also important so

simply let the mind improve whereas this awareness is there probably it should be there because i

conditioned it i conditioned your mind just now you might couldn't have

come up with this kind of thoughts you see it's always coming from somebody else always coming

from a guru so even in this life

the life which i call my life the this mind was not able to think anything more

than its past impressions it was being dictated

by whatever was stored in this mind the sun scars only after meeting a guru

only after the guru showed that oh this is another possibility there is another way to live

to live in awareness to live as the witness the conscious witness to live as the partner the experiencer

only then the mind started changing otherwise it was repeating whatever was being impinged on it

this is the only freedom you have this is the only will you have and the rest is being done by the mother

nature it is already happening the improvement is already happening the only problem is it is producing a

lot of suffering and pain you can take a shortcut take the control

if you want to think it like this take the control of your revolutionary process of this mind

refinement of the mind can happen in awareness instead of in darkness that is the whole

struggle of spiritual seeker to get rid of this mechanical behavior of the mind let everything happen

in the awareness these are the implications it does not

mean not to act you can continue acting in the society you can

you can see that without the action the society is no more there is no society there are no actors

you see you cannot punish people you cannot reward people you cannot pay them you cannot feed them

you cannot control them if there is no individual there is no doer nothing can be done so the society since it's an illusion it

will fall away as soon as this ideas of there being individual and free will

they fall away so another interesting uh implication of this realization is

that you distance yourself from the society because now you cannot tolerate these zombies there

another preference has been formed in your mind and i need to get away from this

bit of darkness which you call my society civilization nothing civilized about

this thing they are totally unaware

totally like a zombie army they are simply repeating whatever is there in their

memory so now a little bit of awareness will

condition your mind to stay away from the society and that will accelerate the refinement of the mind

because now the mind is kind of habitual of reacting to other people and anything in the society you must

have seen it simply regurgitates whatever is your senses are feeding it

garbage in and garbage out that is all going on in your mind in your life even in your body

so that is good that is good because isolation accelerates your liberation

there can be many things you will find all your relations are relations of the mind and impulses

they will fall away i'll go to the topic of relations in a greater

detail in the next episode right now you can you can see that and there is a after

effect of this realization brace yourself it is going to change your life if you

have a life it is going to change the workings of this body mind

if you want to call it like that don't want to call it life because life does not change life is me

myself that which is witnessing this

explosion of awareness is me that is what i am and yes there will be

fallout of this kind of realization the realizations of there being not unusual

is probably the biggest um bomb blast that your mind will witness

in this in its life and the illusion of free will this realization

will be the final nail in the coffin of the ego does not really like it

it will it will trouble you a lot it will try to save itself

by any means possible like a trapped animal it is going to resist

that's why the spiritual path is a little bit difficult because of these

conditionings of the mind because of this our inability to accept what is before

us but anyway there will be a change

it cannot resist forever it will resist for it for some time depending on how big your resistance is you will

struggle and you will suffer but once you taste the taste of freedom

of not doing of being the observer only

this mind will start cooperating you won't be able to give up this blissful state the sweetness of simply

being this is this is a slow process but

it will happen now starting from now so good luck and all the best for your

spiritual journey we are going to continue our series of translations

in our next episode

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