Awareness & Habits

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JPPsTaATWI4

okay i think ajay has said something so

i'll read that

once intellectually truth is gushed then

acting from

and that knowledge

is a challenge

because of the habitual patterns and

acting from ignorance

how to act from the knowledge instead of

habitual ignorance

the answer is only when

it is awareness

since you have grabbed grasped it

intellectually

whenever you act

you bring this understanding

in the mind

you remember this

and if there is awareness

you can make a choice a habit can be

overwritten by another habit

habits do not die off

you will need to substitute it with

something else

as long as there is acting it will come

from memory

and now it is come coming from the old

memory

you need to choose and

let the action happen from the knowledge

whichever whatever is intellectual

knowledge your knowledge

and

you will get the verification of it

when you practice like this

the intellectual will become

real real i mean

there will be a practical example of it

in front of you

no more intellectual only

so awareness is the key

whenever you're acting train your mind

to become aware i'm going to act from

habit now switch the action to

something else which you think is the

right action

or most of the suffering is

in the form of thoughts

so you can bring your awareness

like this

remember the intellectual knowledge

and put it into practice

right when i say it it looks like it is

a long procedure

but in my experience it takes less than

one second to do that

to remember

and yes you will fail many many times

till the new habit takes over the old

one

the new habit is whenever mind starts

doing something like this it will itself

be reminded and itself will terminate

so if you

do it it will

stop the habit

now this is this is happening totally in

the mind

so easy

but let us say there is some

habit of the body like smoking or

drinking or something like this

again awareness

and this time it is going to take a

longer time

every every

task

that we take up which involves some kind

of change

looks hard in the beginning

now you can

recall your experience of riding the

bicycle

very very hard so many times

we fell

but once we learned the balance

it became a natural thing

now without thinking we can write

same thing when we learn a new language

so hard

it it takes a lot of effort

to switch to the other language when we

are learning that language

so it's always hard whenever the mind is

to be changed it will be hard to change

it

initially

but if you keep doing it that is why it

is called a practice that is why it is

called sadhna

or tapasya because it is hard

now if you don't do it because it is

hard then it will never happen

it will remain the same mind which is

days

even if you do it very slowly you know

if you're progressing just

a centimeter every day

still you there is a hope that you will

reach there

but

if you don't even start somewhere

then

no there is no hope

a slow progress is better than no

progress

it does not matter as long as you are

moving

as as soon as you stop well

back to the squaremen

no amount of intellectual knowledge will

substitute for practice

and but fortunately the practice is very

simple

involves remembering involves

bringing the awareness

that this is mind this is me i separate

the two

now look at the mind

and switch

to the

other choice if you have the other

choice

now consider yourself a very very

fortunate because

most of the people don't have the other

choice

they do it

as if

that is the only choice they have

or some people will

further delude themselves it is my

choice it is my free will that's why i'm

doing this

you see

the cigarette is controlling them and

they say this my free will i'll

stop whenever i want and

so on

or their negativity jealousy or anger is

controlling them and they say oh it is

the unjustice

that i am fighting for and i have the

right to be angry and what is the truth

the truth is mechanical action is

happening in the mind

the ego comes and takes responsibility

of it

owns it it is mine i am thinking it and

i am free to think it therefore i am

thinking it

you can see the joke here

the mind itself deludes itself

so you cannot

change the mind from the mind

you need to stand one one

step higher than the mind

on the ladder on the layers of the mind

you will need to stand on the higher

side bring on the awareness

you are faced with the choice like

should i act from the old

or should ignorance or should i act from

the new knowledge

choose the new one

and the mind will not do it mind is a

machine you see

it will do that which is which it is

programmed to do which is its habit

habit is nothing a program only

some impression on the memory

and the actions happen through that

so you will need to be above the memory

you will be you will need to be above

mind

in order to have some control on the

mind

now what happens is awareness also does

not do anything

awareness simply illuminates the other

choice

it illuminates the other choice

then sometimes the mind will take the

other choice

and if the if the

what you call the fruits if the results

of that other choice are favorable

then mind will keep doing it

otherwise not

initially you may find that the fruits

of the new choice are they look like

negative and that's why this

failure happens oh no no no this is too

much

i'll go back to my old thing

and this is i've seen this so much

actually i'm talking from my own

experience

it is still happening to me

you see we are all here we are not free

from the world

what does it mean

it means that

the total control is still not there

it will prefer the old for some time

till the fruits of the new

manifest and then here a little bit of

faith comes

have some faith on the new those who

don't have faith

should have a mind of a scientist

let me see i need to experiment like

this

so these little life experiments you

need to do it again and again and again

now once in a while you do the old also

and immediately you can judge your

progress

you can see the contrast

like i'll tell you my example you know i

was

i got into habitual lying for some

reason

bad company probably

i thought i'm doing it because i'm smart

when i lie nobody can find out that i'm

lying

and i'm doing it because it's my free

will that's what i enjoy

and obviously the mind will enjoy these

things that's why people habitually lie

that's why people are fake most of them

are fakes

so why because mind is trapped into this

mechanical action

and

there are some short-term advantages in

lying so it keeps doing it the fruits

keep coming

and it keeps ignoring that which is

causing suffering the lying is going to

cause a lot of suffering

so keeps ignoring no no this bad luck it

didn't happen

i'll lie double and then

probably i'll cover up everything nobody

will know

and this is how it was going on and

suddenly i realized the value of

speaking truth

because when you say i am the truth

seeker i am the seeker and i am i want

to know the truth and you are talking

lies then it does not compute

the mind can sense so something is wrong

here

so

then the experiment started that let me

see if

i avoid lying as much as possible

and this went on for a few years

and on the occasions where i had to lie

and the contrast was huge huge

because when you talk true you forget

about it and no impressions are made on

the mind you must have noticed the mind

is light like air

like a feather it remains light when you

have spoken the truth it is done it's

gone

but lie even a little tiny bit of lie

it will stick on the mind

it will remain there

and once you have gotten the fruits of

telling truth always speaking truth

your mind will

shift to truth and then it will start

seeing lying as suffering

previously it was opposite

so the fruits came later and i i came to

know this difference only when i had to

lie

or i thought let me be smart this time

and lie again and then

the suffering was too much

it

got impressed on the mind over light

that day

and

you see

for a seeker the fruits will come very

quickly and

something really really bad would happen

whenever i like

so

this is how

we switch

to the

into acting from knowledge

evolving further it takes patience a

little bit of faith little bit of

experimentation little bit of intellect

always compare your old habit with the

new and because always talking true is

also a habit we prefer it that's all

see mind is only memory it is all habits

all programs there's nothing

else there

so what

what happens is the mind prefers that

which gives it more happiness and

freedom

that is how it is programmed

and that is how is the you can say flow

of this universal mind

all the minds prefer happiness and

freedom

or that which they prefer we call it

happiness and freedom

like in this example

telling truth

i give gives a lot of freedom

now you're not bound to anything now

you're not responsible for anything you

know no chains

there are no guilds

there's no no worry about bad

consequences of what i've done

what is this

freedom now you are in the flow

you are in the flow of the universal

mind

so once the mind knows this

now it has become its own experience

it will not go into that which cause

bondage because which cause suffering

not only for me

but for others

so it will prefer

long-term happiness instead of

short-term

it will prefer long-term freedom instead

of and it will it will say okay if it's

a short-term suffering i'll take the

short-term suffering

instead of long-term bondage

it will do that the intellect will

mature like this

so sometimes you suffer a little bit

like a bitter medicine but but the

disease is gone forever

so experiment little bit a bit by bit if

you think that i'll change into

something

which is

you know totally beyond human in one day

it's kind of impossible

so yes there will be many many failures

many many failures

that's why many times i say this it's my

favorite saying

that we are on the spiritual path not

because it is easy not because it's all

you know rainbows and

pretty butterflies and stuff red carpet

no it's not like this

we are on the spiritual path because it

is hard because it is challenging

because nobody does it

that's why we do it

that's why we have taken the evolution

of the mind in our own hands

it takes a little bit of fruit to

you see for the mind to accept this

challenge

it will it won't do it till you practice

it

so i saw this on the face of the gurus

i saw that they are so confident

so free

although not so happy

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but they looked very peaceful

this is how you are motivated because

initially the mind has no idea what this

knowledge is going to do

it will actually be afraid of this

knowledge

so you will need to take motivation from

somebody else in the beginning have an

ideal have a guru

guru is very important

you will see the guru in front of you

and you will see how it has transformed

the guru

how this little experiments

have transformed him

and then your mind will be convinced

and then it will act

without knowing that what will be the

fruit of my new action

you see novelty is terrifying for the

ego

it wants to settle in the known

instead of

venturing into the unknown

this is our evolution because unknown

always meant risk in the old days

getting out of the house getting out of

the village

and your known territory means instant

death

in the old times and this is the

conditioning of the mind

it won't take up anything new because

fear

and this is also the fear of failure oh

it's a waste of time i'm going to fail

i'm already perfect the way i am

and this will prevent

the progress

now just like you

you know i have not special i am also

struggling it is a fight it is everyday

fight it is every minute fight actually

the seeker looks very peaceful but war

is going on inside his mind

nobody will believe this people come and

see me oh you are not troubled by

anything you don't worry about anything

and

you're not afraid of anything

they don't know what is going on inside

it is a war

inside

seeker is not free from anger fear lust

or jealousy or

expectations

attachments not free from that

as long as there's ego there's body

there's mind there will be all these

things

the only difference between uh

ordinary person non-spiritual person and

spiritual person

is that the spiritual person is aware of

all this mess that is inside us

that is why it is it is difficult

you see ignorance is bliss and ordinary

person in his ignorance has nothing to

do there is no nothing going on

internally in that

mind

there's no struggle he has assumed

already i'm the smartest creature in the

world and the you know most beautiful

thing

that nature has produced and and perfect

in every way

whatever he does is his style

whatever bs he's after his smartness

this perfect life for them

it is not so perfect for a seeker

and we know each and everything that is

going on in the mind

and it is you know hell there and that's

why many people drop off

from this spiritual path

because they encounter themselves

there's no bigger disappointment than

this

you think the spiritual path is going to

make you like a pure

heavenly being angel

no

if you're not careful

it will make you it can turn you into a

crazy person

because shows everything there is in the

mind

shows how

dark the mind is

the awareness will bring everything into

light yes it will bring the good parts

also

it will bring up the good parts also and

it will bring up the bad also

now you are obviously not going to worry

about the good it's good everything is

okay there

the bad is going to trouble you the

demon is inside us

there is no demon outside

it is just a state of mind

so we know it is there and that's why

there is this

war going on in the mind of the seeker

it is a battlefield

and the truth is

there will be less peace in your mind

compared to before

although it is only an illusion a seeker

will never want to go back to that piece

the piece of darkness

will never want to go back there he is

going to accept

the mess

that is there that is happening in the

mind

will not go back

you can try yes i'll go back to my

previous

ignorant lifestyle

all the attachments bondages the

ignorance and

habitual behavior like a robot zombie

and you won't be able to stay there for

more than two days it is you know

guaranteed

no

because once it is seen it is seen

it is done that's why

sometimes i jokingly say that

now i have told you what you are

now it is not my responsibility what is

going to happen in your life

now i'm running away

now it is your mess

because i know it's it feels very very

nice i am atman and i'm brahmana and so

on

wow everything you know it's very

freeing

knowledge

it is your direct experience it's not a

belief

so very certain knowledge

and then and then the real

thing appears after a few days

well i am everything then why is there

suffering

why is there suffering in the

world also because because initially the

mind is going to

reject whatever is inside you see it

will look at it is habitual of looking

outside so

well it is it looks

so shiny from

your

point of view but look at the world

it's a mess it's a hell

so it will

see the problems outside initially

and then the body will come in the way

oh no this is you know the body demands

food demands these demands that

needs to sleep it gets tired

it gets diseased

you need to clean it

there is lust

now suddenly you are fighting the body

why why won't it stop doing this thing

the habits of the body

then you say okay it is part of the

mother nature let it do

there is ego then

now ego is the greatest hurdle for any

seeker

and this must be your own experience

body can be tamed the world you can you

can arrange things so that it does not

trouble you too much

you see if you remain okay peaceful and

friendly with everybody so it's okay

it's not going to trouble you

the body can be tamed little bit body is

a robot so

can be

when you encounter the ego then this

question will come then this failure

will happen

because ego is about survival and

survival is the greatest force in the

universe

good luck

trying to control that

this kind of looks impossible

therefore the liberation is ending the

ego death of the ego is defined as

liberation there's nothing more to

achieve here nothing more and that too

the ego is not going to die it will go

only when the body goes

and that's why not taking another birth

is a part of the liberation